I Fell in Love All Over Again

I thought I was in love before, but I guess I was wrong. I mean all those feelings I had before now mean nothing to me. I’ve made it to a new level of love. That kind of love where no matter what you’re doing in the day you always find yourself thinking of them. That’s how I feel... When I walk down the street I hear people singing, an Birds Chirping!I see people dancing and celebrating just like how they do in the movies and musicals when the princess has found her true love. I have that feeling where I just long to be embraced by that special person. That kind of love where I'm constantly thinking about their welfare. That kind of love that makes me want to eat healthy so that they begin to eat healthy…not because they’re fat but because I care about them. That kind of love that makes me wanna hit the gym and work on this stomach of mine so that every time they rub their hand across my body they fall in love all over again. That kind of love where I can’t even sit down and write about being in love without crying because they mean that much to me….(Currently wiping tears…lol)…I know I'm a big baby but I AM IN LOVE WITH THIS PERSON ALL OVER AGAIN….That person is ME!...as ive grown and continue to grow and mature I have begun to find ways to love myself in ways that ive never loved myself before. I am falling in love more and more everyday with this beautiful, smart, strong, young woman that I see before me. I AM LOVING MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!

His Homie and His Honey!!!

Am I too much of a homie to ever be his girl?...a question that frequently goes through my mind…sometimes I just don’t get it. Is it the way I blast Waka Flocka and Gucci Mane in my room? Or Is it the way I kill zombies on Call of Duty? Could it be the fact that I rather be myself than be out here trying (Keyword: Trying) to be somebody’s Barbie!...idk I mean don’t get me wrong im a lady at heart, put me in the kitchen or in a pair of FABOLOUS six inch pumps and best believe ima go to work but im sorry I cant help the fact that I’d rather watch the football game instead of a new episode of Grey’s Anatomy (Sue Me!)    -__-. So then, that leaves me wondering, what is a girl to do?.  I feel like im constantly at war with myself. As a Christian, you always hear “A man that findeth a Wife Findeth a good thing” that sounds so simple and so easy to say, but what Girl doesn’t dream about her Prince Charming coming to rescue her??? I don’t know what else to do except for being myself and soon maybe HE will happen to realize that HE would rather for me to be his HOMIE&HONEY rather then just a Girl_Friend ß(Notice the space in between those two words lol). Until then its just me, Waka Flocka, and Call of Duty =)!!!

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A.M.E.R.I.C.A

So there was a Russian, Two mexicans, and a Black person and Wait! sorry.... you thought this was a joke didn’t you? Well its not, its my life story. Everyday when I sit down and look at the people that I tend to surround myself with I get this uncontrollable feeling of happiness =), this instant source of delight.  Who would have ever thought that such a diverse group of people would be hanging out with each other? Not I nor my ancestors… and here I am now with this amazing opportunity to get a chance to learn different languages, eat different foods, and live a different life. It’s Amazing! It’s really ashamed what people take for granted when given such wonderful opportunities…but NOT me I lOVE this life that im living and the people that are living this life with me, and for as long as I can I vow to myself to open up my mind, body, and soul to allow myself to freely go with the wind. NOW I CHALLENGE YOU TO DO THE SAME!!! =)

Introvert on the Inside, Extrovert on the Outside!

You ever took a survey to figure out like what job would be best for you and they ask you what you would consider yourself to be and the choices are A) Introvert or B) Extrovert.? Depending on how I felt that day would determine the answer for that question. But I've come to realize that neither one of those choices would give you an accurate description of me. People always say "Hey your such a people person" but only if they knew that I was the complete opposite. I can remember calling my mother right after a group meeting and the first thing that came out of my mouth was "Mom, I really don’t like people and I’m getting really angry >= !” For a while I actually thought something was going on with me like maybe I was going through depression or just really stressed but I've come to find out that it’s neither. I JUST HAVE A VERY LOW TOLERANCE FOR PEOPLE!.... I’ve come to terms with the fact that I’m just an Introverted Extrovert (If that makes any sense to you).Whenever people think about Introverts they seem just to think shy but contrary to popular belief it’s more to it. They're not only shy people they just happen to thrive more when alone. For me being alone is when I’m most at peace, it’s when I’m most at ease to allow my inner thoughts to freely  roam my body, spirit, and mind. It’s where I find my balance. But at the same time I enjoy being social. I like to go out and have fun and be the 20year old that I am...But this whole being social thing for me is just mentally draining...To have to sit down and listen to other people’s opinions that I could really care less about o_0...and then you have those people who are just about ignorant in every way possible. Those kinds of people that you just wanna smack the hell out of because they don’t listen...MAYBE IF THEY WOULD SHUT THEIR BIG, FAT, FUNKY MOUTHS!!! (excuse me, I’m sorry about that) They wouldn’t have to ask so many questions that were already answered...ugghh (RickRossVoice)...Then there’s those people who, who just continue to try to talk to you and they know good and well that you don’t like them...oh and let’s not forget about that lady on the 25 who feels the need to tell you her whole life story -__-....You see this...this right here is why...THIS IS WHY...I JUST CANT WITH PEOPLE!!! But people never seem to notice that about me and maybe that’s because my outside appearance is one of an extrovert, you know the ones who people believe are friendly and outgoing? (I’ve heard that before) Extroverts the ones who are said to enjoy social situations and being around people (that sounds like me!), the ones who have an outstanding ability to make small talk (oh yea that’s me) ....Wait!...Never mind...that whole introvert/extrovert bull crap I just told you doesn’t even matter....This right here is what we call "The Art of Networking" ….(I’m pretty sure that just went over your head but when you’re ready to succeed it will make sense.) I guess in life you learn to adapt to your environment and to become what it is that society says you need to be. But if anyone was to ever ask me whether or not I considered myself to be a introvert or an extrovert my answer would go like this:"I consider myself to be a Introverted Extrovert...the introvert is who I am and if I want to be successful in this society the extrovert is who I have to portray to be."